Learning to Forgive… by: Tisha
Their was a woman who I considered my best friend once. I call her a woman now because she never was my friend so I cannot refer to her as an ex or old friend. She is simply a woman that I use to know. Well she had me feeling like crap. She was insecure in her position that she gained gratification by tearing others down. Whenever she was confronted she would say “they are jealous of me” or “they are attacking me.” Gosh I hate when people play the victim role. One day I expressed how I was feeling about our friendship to her because I thought she was my friend so I felt like we could communicate with each other but I was wrong. In her eyes I was the devil and she became God. “You are attacking me, you are jealous of me.” Gosh those statements sound like nails on a chalk board to me. I felt wrong, like me saying how I felt was wrong. At that moment while she was attacking me and my character I felt like “should I apologize for how I feel?” She shut down and wouldn’t talk to me or respond to my calls ot texts. I was left feeling like I did something wrong because I expressed how I feel.
The situation hindered me for months. I would wake up and go to sleep with it on my mind. I would think about ways of how I could get her back so she could be sad like I was. The situation was hindering me because I simply couldn’t let it go. I had to learn to forgive without ever hearing the words “im sorry” but how? After much needed prayer I got my answer from God. As hard as it may seem, you must forgive. When someone mistreats you, downgrades you, or does you wrong; you must forgive. If not then they have control over you because in your mind you will always have anger, bitterness, and resentment towards them. Living with resentment is the worse. You will always replay in your mind what they did to you and what you could have done differently. Forgive and let go! Pray to God for peace and allow him to help you to forgive. Also pray for the one who did you wrong. Pray for their health and happiness because this will help bring closure. Be happy in knowing that they are happy. It takes time to get to this point. Forgiveness is not for them, it is for you so you can live in peace.